hey hey blinky bill, our cheeky mate from green patch hill

I've brought it upon myself to attempt blogging everyday. Mostly because I have no idea what else to do this hols and I refuse to leave myself to the mercy of the idiot box.

Hey hey! You know what? I think tonight is the first weeknight in a long time that Mark didn't call me. You'd think that I ought to be all sad and moody, eh eh eh?? Hehe. But I'm not. I'm so weird. He just called. Hahaha. I :heart: him so much.

Hey hey! I saw Rafie on TV just now for the Blast Off finalists thing. Don't tell him this (Oh geez, don't anyone Google 'Rafie' or 'Blast Off') but the way he performs reminds me of how Brandon Urie from Panic! At the Disco performs. Not totally horrid but so awkward that it looks like he's trying too hard. You know the act, raising a hand out to the cameras, craddling that mike, trying to convey emotions through the eyes, all of it. Even my friend agreed with me that Brandon Urie isn't much of a performer. Oh, and neither is Cassie (Me & U, Long way to go) apparently. Some VJay on Channel [V] said that her audience were less than impressed by her lip syncing and entertaining skills. Bwahahaha.

Hey hey! I went to the driving range earlier this afternoon and practically played my hands raw! I would've started bleeding if I hadn't stopped. That hurt. I wonder if that's saying something about my grip... does anyone who reads my blog play golf? What does it mean if I manage to play my hands completely raw to the point of near mutilation? Oh yeah, I should mention that I lost my glove so lately, I've been playing without it.

Hey hey! I bought myself a swanky white golf glove after the driving range. I'm so pimping. ;)

how a molehill becomes a mountain

Internet is being a bitch again so my post on my new sexy friend will have to wait.

It's funny how when I first enrolled into Curtin, people were saying that once I went into first year of engineering and out of foundation engineering that things will get easier. I do wonder if it is because going through foundation engineering actually prepared us for worse things to come and when we eventually get there, things aren't as bad as we have prepped ourselves up to be.

Or is it because once we get there, things really are better. Because it does seem to me that in degree, we are given more chances to pass with all the quizzes that we have to take every single week, the many assignments, which in turn help boost our internal marks making it easier to pass our final exams?

Or is it really because that once we get to our first year, we are actually taking two steps back again?

I'm just mulling over this because my mom asked the other day, when Wani was around, whether we thought first year degree was harder or easier than our foundation year. We both agreed that degree was easier. Hmm. Cross our fingers and let's hope that we're not being too overconfident, eh?

Anyways, examination results come out on the 14th of December. Pray for me, people? I've already failed one too many times. Goodluck to everyone else too.

Hahaha.. I just remembered that the school is threatening to withhold my examination results until I pay them RM100. I wonder if I should just pay them the money or maybe stir up some dust storms regarding the whole issue involved.

What's the whole deal actually? I paid my school fees late. Why? Because the deadline of payment was on the same day that my foundation examination results came out. Our results only go up online at 5pm on that day. Also the same time which the office closes.

I did not want to pay my school fees early only to find out that I failed and then I would have to fill out more forms, and then wait weeks/months just for them to "process" everything so that they can give me back my money.

But instead, they choose to fine me for late payment. Which doesn't make sense, does it? What is so wrong with wanting to wait for confirmation that I am in the degree program before having to fork over MY MONEY.

It's just like paying my kidnappers the money for my family members, which I can't confirm whether they were still alive or not. Which even the kidnappers aren't able to tell me if they were still breathing oxygen!

That's what those people with their stupid "policies" are. Kidnappers! Or maybe just baddies. Actually, just the henchmen working for an elusive and greedy boss.

The conclusion is that it was a very stupid policy to have. The logic in it is non-existant!

And that's why my family and I have refused to pay them the money. Not because we don't have it. It's RM100, of course we have it. But it's a matter of standards. And of stupidity on their part.

Ever want to meet a bunch of idiots who somehow were trusted to run a university? Just call me up, and I'll show you. Don't worry too much though. They are all placed within strong glass enclosures. And so far, no serious injuries nor deaths from coming in contact with these beings have been reported.

impromptu movie marathon

The other day, Mimin and Wani came over for an impromptu slumber party slash movie marathon. I can't remember which day it was though... oh yeah, it was Thursday night. Our marathon lasted for only 3 movies before everyone started dozing off. Hahaha. What did we watch? Brokeback Mountain (none of us had watched it before and were curious), Red Eye, and Night Watch (some Russian flick).

Brokeback Mountain: The Gay Cowboy Movie
Sadly sadly sadly, I wish it did, honestly! But it didn't manage to break out of that whole being deemed the Gay Cowboy Movie thing. After watching it, it was still.. the Gay Cowboy Movie. I know I'm mean. Get over it. Besides, they were both cheating on their wives! Living lies! Sneaking away each weekend just to be with one another?? I know they both really loved one another.. and it was really a movie about love. But it still doesn't change the fact that they both lied to their families. But I admit I found the movie disturbing. The many love scenes that was in it.. yeah. I just was not used to all that. I only expected one kiss but got much more than that. I kept hiding behind the little cushion I was holding everytime those scenes came on.. almost like I was watching a horror movie. Ahahaha.

Red Eye: Oooohh.... Rachel McAdams!
Yeah, Rachel McAdams was in this movie. It was an OK movie. Not bad, but nothing to shout about either. Rachel plays Lisa who works in a hotel and is threatened on her flight back to Miami to move some politician into another room from the usual room where he would usually stay in the hotel that she works in so that terrorists can kill him. Lisa is then confronted with the choice of whether she should do her duty and protect the politician and risk her father being killed or vice versa.

Night Watch: The Russian Flick
Suprised me with the visual effects. Stunning. Wished I was able to keep my eyes open long enough to figure out what was going on in the movie though. All I remember were light and dark knights who were at war with one another, witches, killing babies, love potions, vampires, hunters, something about The Other.. and that was it. I fell asleep. Couldn't help it as much as I really wanted to stay up and figure out the story. Also, I heard that the subtitles went off halfway into the movie and only came back on when it was close to the ending. Plus, I think a lot of stuff might've been lost in translation. So, does anyone else know what it was really about? Please tell me.

Then everyone eventually retired to bed at about 4am. I got up earliest. Call me nuts or whatever, but I just wasn't able to stay in bed. Everyone else got up at least an hour later. Bwahaha. I've been watching movies a lot lately. I could probably write at least three movie reviews a day, actually. But you know how people won't be bothered to read things like that. :P

say it right

Nelly Furtado - Say It Right
Artist: Nelly Furtado
Title: Say It Right
Album: Loose
Year: 2006





Eeee.. I really like this new track that Nelly Furtado just released. Sounds very trace. Beautiful. And she looks really gorgeous with that new hairstyle she was sporting in her video. So chic!

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand
Or you fall
When your will
Is broken
When it slips
From your hand
When there's no
Time for joking
There's a hole
In my plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say
That I'm not
Lost
And at fault
I can't say
That I don't
Love the light
And the dark
I can't say
That I don't
Know that I
Am alive
And I love
What I feel (feel)
I could show (show you)
You tonite, you tonite

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

From my hands
I could give you
Something
That I made
From my mouth
I could sing you
Another bridge
That I made
From my body (my body)
I could show you (I could show you)
A place (a place)
God knows (that only God knows)
You should know
Space is holy
Do you really
Wanna go?

(you don’t mean nothing at all, to me)
(you don’t mean nothing at all, to me)

This is the music video that I mentioned that Nelly looked gorgeous in. Doesn't she though? The video just oozes chic. And I have to say that I've always been jealous of her high cheekbones. Hmph.


And this is when she performed at the American Music Awards which was only yesterday. She was sporting the new hair and working that wind machine. It was a great performance. Loved it. Couldn't help laughing at the dude who did the background sounds though. Hehe.

we went to shiki

We did say that we were gonna treat ourselves to some Japanese food after our exam, didn't we? :P So, we kidnapped Halim to come makan with us. And brought my cousin, Greg, and brother, Aaron, along too.

Definitely fail as models. Hahaha. I ate till my heart's content that night. I had unaju, salmon sushi, and tuna salada. I think I spent the most that night too. But I've been planning on doing that also anyway cos I have to celebrate that my exams are finally over, right? Not only just cos my exams are over.. but also cos the whole sem is over and so begins my 3 month holiday!

*clap clap* Happiness. So, no regrets. Plus, I got home just in time to catch House on tv too!

first day of hols was yesterday

First day into the holidays and already I was bored. This must be a record. It should probably be at least a week before anyone could start complaining. Ha ha.

Hurrrmm.. so.. what should I do for this 3 month holidays?

I don't really want to work. I've been slaving my ass off for the past 9 months. So no, thank you.

What Kim should consider doing over the holidays:

1. Work out/exercise
2. Read books (means must buy books, but no $$!)
3. Watch TV? (Actually, no thanks.)
4. Buy X'mas presents (means I also need $$. hmm.)
5. Take up a new sport?
6. Practice violin!
7. Practice piano. Muahaha.
8. Catch on Anime. :-/ Geek, I am.
9. Read comics. Ehehe.
10. Watch movies and DVDs. (sounds like a good prospect)
11. Pick up cycling again.
12. Fix the bikes.

Just stuff that managed to come to mind just at the moment. Maybe there's more.
Oh. Yes, catch up on PS2 games should also be on the list. Hahaha.

Ah. Bored, I am.

random pictures for that splash of colour

cayman islands

Kings of Convenience - Cayman Islands
Artist: Kings of Convenience
Title: Cayman Islands
Album: A Riot on an Empty Street
Year: 2004





Been relistening to this song lately. It's an old song, I know. It was first introduced to me by a friend. Glad he did cos I loved this track. It's funny because this song, even after these few years, still sounds great to me. It helps mellow me out. And unlike other songs, I can listen to this one when I'm happy/sad/stressed/angry whereas with other songs I feel that I can only listen to a them when I'm only happy/only sad/only angry/only stressed. Definitely one of my favourite songs, ever.

Through the alleyways to cool off in the shadows
Then into the street following the water
There's a bearded man paddling in his canoe
Looks as if he has come all the way from the Cayman Islands

These canals, it seems, they all go in circles
Places look the same, and we're the only difference
The wind is in your hair, it's covering my view
I'm holding on to you, on a bike we've hired until tomorrow

If only they could see, if only they had been here
They would understand, how someone could have chosen
To go the length I've gone, to spend just one day riding
Holding on to you, I never thought it would be this clear

we are all a bit stupid at times

I can be pretty stupid at times.

Last night as I was lying in bed, I was thinking to myself..

"hmm... how else can you spell stupid?"
"s-t-o-o-p-i-d."
"or maybe s-t-o-p-i-d. oh no.. it wouldn't be pronounced the same that way."
"hmm.. s-t-u is pronounced the same way the first syllable sounds.."
"so.. s-t-u-p-i-d then! Haha! I'm so smart."
"hey wait. s-t-u-p-i-d.. that's the correct spelling already la!"

Told you I could be dumb. Maybe the exams that are going on are frying my brain cells.

Another thing that happened last night too was that I decided to take a nap before I continue studying. It was at 1.10am when I took my nap. I was sure to set my alarm to ring at 1.40am so that I would wake up and continue on with my studies.

At 1.40am, the alarm rang, I got up all groggy, and switched off my alarm thinking, "What the... it's 1.40 in the morning!! Who so stupid set this alarm." and promply went back to bed.

:D

... christmas is near

URGH! THE GEEK IN ME IS SCREAMING, "I WANT I WANT I WANT!" [Link]

Someone please tell her to shut up and just keep on dreaming.

question is worth 100 marks

10 + 12 + 4 = ?

Cos that's the amount of mosquitoe bites I got all over my body right now.

I feel so loved by the one species I hate the most. Uh. Next to cicaks. Hee.

Damnit lah. Have to wait for my skin to recover before I can wear anything sleeveless.

Or any shorts too. And maybe skirts. But I don't know if that's counted.

Since, you know, I rarely wear skirts. Heh heh.

slightly late well wishes

Phew! Relieved. The exam went better than expected. Except that I ran out of time. I managed to answer all the questions except for half of one. Haha. Cos I was writing halfway through answering the question when that usual, "Time's up. Please stop writing and put down your pens" line was said.

Can pass la, I pray. Not too sure about the next two upcoming exams though.

Isyk isyk.

Goodluck to myself.

Goodluck to everyone out there also facing exams. Let's make this quick and painless.

Goodluck to addicted bloggers. You know you shouldn't still be blogging about mundane things?? You could be using the time you spend online, typing away, studying some more! Teehee.

Goodluck to couch potatos. Don't worry, there are always reruns. And bittorrent.

Goodluck to procrastinators. You can always catch up on avoiding more work during the holidays. Easier some more.

Goodluck to you average/less-than-average students. May the light of intelligence or answers shine upon you this exam season.

Bwahahaha. Sounds like I'm only wishing luck to myself. Because. I'm such a horrid student. An addicted blogger, a couch potato (I have MTV playing in the background. Watching a pre-MTV EMA 2006 special about Copenhagen), a procrastinator, as well as an average student.

But yes, goodluck to the rest of you too!

PS. Copenhagen looks like a really gorgeous place to visit. Mmm! Must go there someday!

PPS. I was daydreaming about what I would do after exams while doing my exam just now. I must be nuts.

today

it's D-Day...

Farewell my friends.. May we meet again..
Should else happen.. a good life I wish for thee.
*sniffles*

digging my own grave

Hahahaha! I'm soooooo hopeless. Exams aren't over and the holidays haven't yet started and I'm already so happy thinking about what I'm gonna do after the exams and with my holidays.

First, I plan to have a boring Christmas.

Oh Wani! We absolutely have to go celebrate with Japanese food after our exams! Any other takers? You're all welcome if you wanna join in. Lol. We'll probably be more than happy to even care should someone else tag along.

Yummmmmmy! Can't wait. Eeeeee.

Then I keep daydreaming about what I'm gonna be doing once I'm in KL/Seremban/Singapore for the long holidays. Mmmmm.... I keep dreaming about making a video of my trip. Just so that I could have a little project to do over the holidays. Yes, I would LOVE to experiment with "film".

And then there's the chance that Mark might be able to come along with me to Singapore! Yayyyy!~ Then I'm gonna bring him around.. and show him the place... Did I ever mention that Singapore is probably my 2nd home? :P

What else? I'm so happy. Geez! Happy happy happy. Hoppity hoppity hop! Lalala~

And the shopping. Ooooh! Crossing my fingers that there would be some great sales going on when I'm over there. Then I can shop shop shop! Ah... I think I love shopping now. Eeee. I sound like a girl! Cover your ears! Urgh. I'm sure you're all like, "wtf. kim? shopping? kim??! shopping??! did kim just say the word 'sales'?? does she even know the meaning of the word?!!"

Hahahahaha. Ya, but that's cos I only learnt the joys of spending cash just the previous year. When I bought many the things. Ooohhh.. and I fell in love with brands. Oh psssh! I can still wear non-branded things. But you have to have noticed how branded things are so much better.

But then again, there's that thing where I don't know how to spend on myself. And I never shop for myself. I'm a failure. The only reason why I could shop before was cos I had people around me pointing stuff out to me, telling me to try, all I had to do was give a thumbs up or down, then they would pay for me. Muaahahahaha.

Then I remember when my handphone got stolen and I felt so down and sad and disconnected from the world. That's how heavily I rely on my handphone. Haha. So then my aunt brought me to buy this handbag which cost a couple hundred dollars? Bloody expensive bag. Also my first taste of retail therapy. =)

I'm digging my own grave here.

I sound so blonde. Ew.

manic mondays

You know, I was so happy earlier today. Not only did I have a great weekend, but I also handed in my last assignment for the semester.

Lega rasa!

It's the first time that I've ever made a portfolio that is so thick. 170 plus pages, people. Although my portfolio was not the thickest of the bunch but it still remains the thickest portfolio I've ever made. Our assignment was to make a Learning Portfolio where we would have to pick three samples of work from each unit that we have been doing this semester and to write our reflections on it. We had to pick our best, average, and most disappointing work and then comment on why we picked them and how did they help in our learning process or how it did not do anything for us. And we had to do that for all the units that we have been taking for this semester.

That's why it was so thick.

I'm kinda proud of what I have done for it.. cos I also put little tabs along the side of my portfolio just so that the lecturer or whoever would be thumbing through my portfolio would have an easier time looking for certain chapters. I thought it was cute.. Hehe. Ah. You know, I didn't even want to hand it in! Because soooooo sayang la! That portfolio is full of all the work and effort I've put into this frigging course over this semester.

Sigh. But have to lah, kan? Dahla my portfolio looked so professional and pretty. Ah, darn. And to think that I won't be seeing it ever again..

Legalah but now.. RIGHT NOW... I'm having a panic attack.

Any guesses why?

Yes,exams.are.in.a.weeks.time.bloody.fuck.fuck.fuck.
need.to.breathe.breathe.before.i.pass.out.from.lack.of.oxygen.fuck.

It rained earlier today. So as I was walking by myself, in the cafeteria, I slipped, and cried, "FUCK!" out loud.

Eheh. Malu la. At least I didn't fall. But a girl that was closeby looked me right in the eye and I just clapsed one of my hands across my pretty foul mouth and walked quickly away. Hahahahaaa.

great weekend

Definitely. And certainly one I needed. Hehe!

*on a buzz*

Love really is better than C₈H₁₀N₄O₂ (caffeine).

(Ignorantly) take it from someone who doesn't drink coffee. :P

raya post

Sadly, the only house I visited for raya this year was Mimin's. Eheh!

I got excuse! Dad was lazy to go visiting. Mom was in Singapore with my lil sis, Andy. And since I would usually go visiting together with my family... and they're all not around... the most I could bring myself to doing is walking over to the next street to visit my friend, Mimin. :P

Itupun I didn't eat as much as I would during the festive season. Was full the whole day through, till dinner. Suprisingly. I can't even remember what I had that morning. But it was all still good.

After I got home, I noticed that in one picture I took whilst I was at Mimin's house well... you'll see. Don't kill me.

Sadly, I was bored. Talentless and unfunny.

i still want want want

Oh gosh! She's got more! She's got more! *jumping around, clapping hands with glee*

And these two are more gorgeous than her previous ones.

I still want want want!! Eepps!

don't laugh please, smile and sigh instead

I was going through my old blog, Guilty Secrets, trying to figure out what it was that people liked about it. And I have no idea. All my posts were a mess. All I found out was that I had a lot more going on back then than I do now. Which just goes to show, how sad my life got. :P But I do know this, eventhough my I had more going on back then, I'm defnitely happier and more stable where I am now.

Last night Mark and I got into a fight that stemmed from a misunderstanding that happened 2 afternoons ago. Just so that you guys know that we're both human too. :P

All I know is that for the first time, I felt really hurt by him. I think it's the first time I yelled at him. I think it's the first time we both said hurtful things about each other.

It's the first time that he made me cry so very badly. I honestly felt like I lost him. That although we were still together, that he had broken up with me because I didn't feel like I could rely on him anymore. I felt like he's not the person I thought he was. That he doesn't care.. I still loved him though, at that moment. But in my mind, I tried to tell myself that it's alright if I behave like nothing mattered, like I don't have any feelings so that he can hurt me all he wants to.

That I don't need him to feel better. That I can feel better all by myself whenever I'm upset. That I didn't have to tell him anything anymore because he more than likely would not be able to understand or remember anyway. That even if I told him, he would ignore what I said so that he just wouldn't have to deal with it.

But we managed to eventually talk it out. It was very bittersweet..

He said that ever since I got mad at him and left him alone without a word, without any smses, without any emails, without any chats, without any calls.. that in that time he realised that he does love me and that he does care.

I was crying badly when he said that he thought of me and missed me.. and he said he remembered how we were together.. how I would hug him.. how he would give me piggybacks.. how I smiled.. then he told me he loves me.. then he said that he remembered how we would cuddle.. and all these little things.. and he told me that he loved me again.. then he said that while he was walking past a shop window.. he saw the masks that we both got.. and how the idea of leaving me angry till the weekend and then suprising me with presents crossed his mind.. but how he decided against it because I might break up with him and leave him sad and lonely with presents to give to no one.

I need to remember that moment.. it's rare to see or hear my boyfriend behaving that way..

Yeah.. I don't ever want to lose that memory. =)

I thought I didn't need to be coddled... talk about me dreaming. Pfft. :P

just a thought

I'm wondering if I should be honest here or would it be better if I just sugarcoated my life.

how it basically evolved

This is the position I usually take when I'm lying in the back seat of my aunt's car with Mark after church. Teehee.

Anyways, anyone noticed anything new about my blog? Or did everyone just come in and go, "Hey, wait! This isn't what Cupcakes and Muffins is supposed to look like.." and then prompty exits my blog without telling me how nice/horrid it now looks.

Doesn't matter anyway. I mostly do these things for me. It took a couple of days to get everything together, to create the graphics, yes, simple but it took awhile to come up with them because I wasn't satisfied with the maybe 100,000 other samples that ended up only in the bin.

And then there was the coding. Had to sort of relearn how to code again because I haven't really been HTML in ages. If you're gonna ask me how I did it.. or how I learnt it.. it's completely by trail and error!

I remember starting out back in Secondary school with FrontPage. Thought it was fun and then I set up my own little website on Angelfire and Geocities as well as a various other webhosting service sites which I have now forgotten. Eventually blogs were invented. Which made posting my writings easier and much more simple. I signed up with Blogger first and then signed up with Xanga as well just to see which would be better for me. You can guess which one I chose to use since I'm still with it after all these years.

Learnt how to edit templates in blogger by refering to FrontPage, surfing sites that gave tips on HTML and viewed the source codes of other blogs as well as normal websites. Does that sound like stealing to you? :P Well, that only happened when I needed to know how that person did something or I really liked what they had on their sites.

Then enters in Photoshop. And this is what you get. Which isn't much considering how unprofessional it still is.

But whatever, you know? I like it.

I hope you all like it too.